Sunday, 26 June 2011
Friday, 24 June 2011
I don’t care if this is more venting, I need to vent.
My so-called friend is ignoring me like I’m dead [which, for the record, I might as well be] and now feel super down after reading a tonne of old emails she sent me telling me how much I made her laugh and now I can’t help but think where I went wrong, or even why I’m blaming myself for this since this is completely out of my hands now, and completely blown out of proportion.
Full of confusion and hate right now. Tomorrow I have to get on and sabotage someone’s career, and rest assured, I will be doing it with the utmost glee.
Everyone should suffer as what I feel right now. I don’t care if this is selfish. When it comes to people, I’m usually nice. Right now, I’ve fucking had it.
So these past few weeks have been crazy to say the least.
Firstly, exams are over, and I could literally not be more happy. Most of them went the best they could’ve gone, so fingers crossed for decent results. Slightly sad that it’s only Friday and I’m already missing Music in a Stockholm-Syndrome kinda way, but that’s what school does to you.
Anyway, I don’t have to revise anymore so this is a definite positive, along with the fact that on Monday I’m off to America once again :) which seemed to come around really quickly, although sad about how much I’m missing while I’m away.
On the downside, my so-called “friend” still isn’t talking to me, let alone apologising for some shit that went down last weekend, but I’m going out tomorrow, and I’m on the point of giving up caring, as long as I get to see people before I go away then that’s all I care about, but I’d just like to thank my friends [especially Sofi] for being an awesome listener and sympathiser and not judging me too much for things beyond my control.
Summer officially starts here.
What a bittersweet feeling.
Listening To: The Yogscast and TotalBiscuit Deadmines Run
Watching: The Weakest Link on mute
Loving: Getting stoned last night, the weekend
Eating: Gum, as always boiiii
Thinking: This is turning into a dA journal entry
Quote of the Day: “What’s the difference between Chinese people and Japanese people?”
“They’re both different shades of yellow.”
[No racism intended, we were watching a Korean film and I wanted to know the difference]
Further NB: Probably my last entry before I leave for Americazzzz
Ciao for now xxx
Sunday, 19 June 2011
Sunday, 12 June 2011
Saturday, 11 June 2011
^^ the internal struggle I must deal with after reliving last night countless times through my minds eye.
Poor alcohol, it always gets the blame for everything.
p.s. I'm a pimp now.